Funny how exactly what you want to happen does, only when you stop wanting it so badly.

(But now that it's here, I love it just as much as I thought I would. Only now I have a better understanding and have altered my expected outcomes.)
It comes and goes. I just roll with the punches. And only this weekend did it really become clear to me that I was comfortable with being just that- comfortable. And I realize that we are (or at least I think we are) at that level where comfortable is the ultimate proof of closeness. Well, that, and you calling me within ten minutes of waking up at a ridiculous hour of the early evening. Like you did once before when I was still trying to fall out of four-letter words. So much has changed since then- obviously. But we all know I'd be blatantly lying if I said I could do without us. Maybe I could. But I'd rather not.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that in your three-card decks, I'm glad to see I'm not getting lost in the shuffle.
(Thanks for being a friend.)

--Lauren

[what was ... what will be]