We're not supposed to want it, but we do.

Here's to fingers secretly crossed under the table. Here's to wanting the physical vulnerability. Here's to re-living insignificant moments in your head.

Here's to having enjoyable taboo memories with boys who will never think twice of it,

and for actually being ok with that.

I think about all the gender double standards as I watch the bathtub fill.

--Lauren

[what was ... what will be]