No, you cannot eat the cake.

Now you don't even have the balls to say you love me (even though you do). I know there's more than just an I heart you. I suppose I can understand the justification of not wanting me to get the wrong idea; but how about shutting down everything else? The secrets, the cigarettes, the subtle flirting, the musical intimacy, the I love yous now turned to I heart you. All of it needs to go. All of it. Because even when it makes me happy for a night, it never lasts. And at the end of the day, she's still the girlfriend and I'm just the friend. And yet I can't help but feel I'm picking up her slack- a responsibility I'd be more than willing to take on, if only it meant that I got the title.

But it's not mine.
You're not mine.

And maybe you need to stop robbing my emotions and raping my loyalty because

you

can't

have

both

.

--Lauren

[what was ... what will be]