Now I know for sure.

Tha past five days have passed by so quickly.
So fantastic.
So eventful.
So nastolgic.
So full of life.

Everything has been my decision, and I think that's why I have this current immunity to regret.

I have come to the conclusion, not just with analysis but with emotional and physical evidence, that the boy who I'm in love with loves me just as strongly. People just taint things with definitions and restrictions. Do not think that the realist in me is dying, no no- it's that the carpe diem in me is living. Fuck wanting more than what I have when what I have is just as amazing, if not moreso, simply because it does not fit into a logically outlined category.

I have come to the conclusion that I am a beautiful being. Even on the outside. I am the head arsonist in burning down my confidence. But no more. Because I shall go for what I want without the belief that rejection is imminent. If there is anything that I have learned these past five days, it's that

I
am
worthy
.

--Lauren

[what was ... what will be]